The doctor refused to work with me in rehab, citing, “When you walk into a room, don't you want to be like everyone else?”.
I took the question, pondering over how I should respond. Should I call out the demon attacking the doctor, therefore ending our relationship? Should I say how I feel, therefore ending our relationship? Or should I just remain silent?
I chose to remain silent to the aforementioned question but express my feelings in a new book, a celebration of me. I'm not like everyone else and for a long time, I struggled with being different. Now, I'm confident yet humble at the same time. I can read the room and be the room, at the same time. Most importantly, I feel that I'm more than a lowly demon, looking at everyone else.
About the book. I searched all week for a story, a celebration of me when I realized that I'm boring. I walk into a room like everyone else. I sit in my chair like everyone else, doing normal things and who wants to read that?
Because I’m boring, I can't write about me nor can I serve that lowly demon I spoke about earlier. I feel my words come from the Lord and while I'm struggling with this whole trinity thing, I definitely believe in the Holy Spirit and when I walk into a room, He's there. And in the other room too. Even if I'm the only one who believes. I can write about that.
So, I can't write about me unless I write about You. A celebration of You. You make up so much of who I am and when I get compliments, I give them all to You. You are the reason I write, the reason why I'm even in the room. For a long time I didn't know why, but I'm different and don't wish that I could be the same.
So in conclusion, the doctor refused to work with me in rehab, citing, “When you walk into a room, don't you want to be like everyone else?”.
If you walk into my circle
Then you stand next to me
Cause I’m always looking out
And I’ll teach you good things
And be a reminder to you
Like elementary
When I say things to you like
Stop looking at yourself
And don’t you look at me
When you walk into my circle
You stand next to me
And we work as a team
To accomplish
Great and powerful things
Cause now is the time
To mighty morphing power ranger
This thing
So stop looking at yourself
And don’t you look at me
When you walk into my circle
You stand next to me
Cause I’m always looking out
And I’ll teach you good things
And be a reminder to you
Like elementary